spooky it was!

Finally, after seven weeks of what so I call boring, I have to admit tonite that COC is such a great class.

It was praying time.

The so-called-spooky man said this when he prayed for me,

“Let your self-image become clear in God,”

The first word that he mentioned was, “Gambar diri”

I was shocked, in a way. I was like, “Damn it. Please not that word!”

I thought I had a pretty clear self-image, and there is nothing wrong in me anymore.

I know myself so good, but I am not. That is what God was trying to tell me about.

Then the spooky man continued,

“Do not care of what people say about you,”

DANG!! How did he know?? That I always easily got affected by what people say about myself.

I never told him a single thing about my life, since we never talked before.

But he read me like a book.

I started to cry. H-spee was talking to me, this is what he said, “I know you, I know your life, I know everything that happen in your life, even though you are trying to hide it from me. I can always see you. Don’t keep yourself apart from me, Henry. This is the time to get yourself back to me.”

Then the spooky man hugged me, and he said this, “He wants you to know that He loves you so much as a father, more than what your biological father could give to you.”

He hugged me tighter every second. I felt warm, I felt save, I felt as if God Himself was standing there and giving me a hug.

A hug from a father is something that I always longing for.

I was crying like hell.

These last few weeks I felt so superior, but now He kind of remind me, that He is the one, the ultimate superior in my life, and how small I am compare to His greatness.