Pride

“Henry .. stop doing this. You’re killing yourself!”

“I don’t care, Zac. I’m craving for this.”

“Don’t be stupid, Hen.”

“I’m not perfect, Zac. I can’t be the smart and wise guy all the time.”

“Henry …”

“Shut up, Zac!”

I walked away and left him.
I know this is not the first time I shush him.
But sometimes he’s just too annoying.
I know he’s doing the best thing for me, to protect me, to prevent me from being such a failure.
But I can’t handle this stubborn head.
Maybe that’s the reason why I feel so dry lately.
I protect myself by hiding behind the stronghold.
I think I have successfully destroyed my strongholds, the first one was seeking attention from others, the second one was my insecurity, my being low self-esteem and unconfident.
Unconscious, slowly but sure, I have managed to build another stronghold.
This time it’s called pride.
With all the great opportunities and achievement that I have gained these last 3 months, has made me so cocky.
From inferior I turned out superior.
Now I understand why I keep smiling seeing everything that I did wrong lately.
I just don’t care, I keep telling myself, that I did the right thing. Deep inside, I know, I have done some wrong things.
I have put some wrong steps to the wrong directions.
But again, “I don’t care”, I said.
Because I have the most dangerous sin in me, Pride.

I turned around and tried to call Zac.
But he’s gone. Too late.

-it is important for you to know what kind of stronghold that you have in you that protects you and keeps you in your comfort zone-