I Thought I Was the Only One

Laras, my friend, another blog-addict, just posted a very gud and touching posting.
This is it. (Ras, gw potong2 gapapa ya..)

Last night I saw Spiderman 3 (I know, telat abis ya, hahaha).. And the very last scene of the movie really stroked me. Yes yes, that part where Harry was dying and he was looking at Peter and MJ with such look..
Best friends. That's how people call it.
Then I asked myself, who’s you best friend, Ras? Someone who would die for you (well, most cases are not that extreme), someone you can always talk to about any things, laugh at any things (even the unfunny ones), someone who would be there for you and such..
Funny that I couldn’t find any names.
None.
I push people away because I don’t want to get hurt. But seriously, I never give up hope.. I gave chances to people here and there, but somehow they managed to fail my trust again.. And again. Classic!
But hey, breaking news, I survived.
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It's just funny. Yesterday I just posted something on my blog about how I feel tired with all those people that gave me such promises like,
"You can count on me."
"I'm all ears"
"You can trust me"
I just realized, it's just such a big CRAP!
It's just funny. This morning, when I prayed to God, I did say something like this:
"God, I don't know who are my best friends. Those names that I put on the list, they failed my trust. I'm tired of seeking a true best friend, Lord. But, I'm not gonna give up hope. I know one day, You'll give me one."