what Satan can do to pursue his mission...??

copied, from my FS blog on February.

Rain, rain go away .. come again another day.
All the world are waiting for the sun.

Hm .. I have been putting that verse of Breaking Benjamin’s song entitled Rain, in my prayer to God.
I asked or should we say, I begged, for His mercy, for His grace to stop the rain.
Stress to the max that’s what I feel right now..
Everyday is like a déjà vu for me.
I woke up today just to repeat all the things that happened to me yesterday, and the day before.
I even start to believe that there is nothing new happens under the sun, since the sun itself has been on vacation lately ..
My daily activities for every single day are:
Wake up, pray to God, open my bedroom window, go downstairs, make a glass of milk, go to the bathroom, brush my teeth, wash my face, turn on the computer, read the articles that I’ve copied from relevant magazine, turn the computer off, grab my mobile, listen to Hardrock FM till I fall asleep, wake up at 11.00 am, take a shower, lunch time, online, meet my friends at MSN, after 3 or 4 hours I stop my internet stuff, grab my mobile listen to Hardrock FM again, and the rest .. I’m sure u don’t wanna hear it .. they are just so boring.

See?? Monotone .. nothing different for me between today and yesterday and the day before. It’s just rain and rain and rain and rain .. rain til I drop.
Well .. the good news is I didn’t lose my faith, I didn’t lose my hope that my tomorrow will be a better day. I go to bed early, wishing that I can find something new tomorrow.
But … the bad news is I started to lose my faith just now .. I lost the enthusiasm I’ve been keeping inside myself to face tomorrow .. I start to think that nothing gonna happen tomorrow.

“Nothing will happen, you’re just gonna wake up tomorrow morning, and start to repeat yourself .. repeat your daily activities. All that u will meet is just the feeling of déjà vu, that will strikes u abundantly,” my evil conscience told me.

Being trapped in your own house, in your own life, in your daily routine is so dangerous. And did I mention that this déjà vu thing just happened to me for a week?? While I have a month plus holiday .. so you can count it for me how many days for me to survive from this déjà vu feeling.

My message is this, it’s not about the déjà vu, and it’s not about the feeling of boredom that I suffered, but it’s about how dangerous Satan is .. he uses my boredom to decrease my level of faith upon Him!!!

Are you with me?

I must confess that I am losing my faith. The first time I prayed about this rain stuff, I prayed with all my heart, with all my faith. But yesterday, yes I did pray .. but .. I didnt use my faith .. I just prayed, all that I said to God was, “Yeah Lord .. it’s all up to You .. let your will be done bla bla bla ..” There was despair in my prayer ..

I know that the first thing that I must do, when I feel so desperate is to surrender to God. Not lifting my hands up and say, “It’s done Lord. I got so sick and tired with all of this. So now it’s all up to you .. I want to stop praying for this.”

Surrender is different from give up. Though they have the same meaning in our language, which is “Menyerah”. But for me, I see it this way .. Surrender means you give all your problems to God, let God fix it, but you still have faith on it. But give up means, you quit .. you quit because you don’t know what to do, because you got so tired and sick of your problems, and you just don’t want to face it anymore. Same word, huge different meaning.

Well .. I got so shocked when I found out this fact. I was like, “Oh My God .. I am so sorry! I was lost …”
Then God starts to open my eyes, God starts to give me the reasons why I must feel so grateful instead of feeling so tired and hatred.

1. I am during my holiday now, means I don’t have to go out of my house .. I don’t have to meet “BANJIR”, I don’t have to meet “HUJAN GEDE BESERTA KILAT” .. I can just stay at home, comforting myself with my blanket, listening to music, I can read my bible and everything. Oh geesh I am so selfish, I forgot the fact, that there are a lot of people out there, that whether they like it or not, they must go out and deal with this rainy stuff. Laras must go to her office, Vita too .. Gideon is worse, his 4^th semester just started. My own dad, he must go to his office ..

2. I didn’t have to move to somewhere else to save myself and my family from the flood. While my friends, Sasha spent her nites at Acasia Hotel, and Ivon, she moved to her friends house to get away from the flood.

3. My house didn’t get the impact of the electrical problem, while my auntie Stella is.

4. This is the best .. I have the opportunity to do Sabbath! Sabbath --- times of escaping for communion with God. I must send Him a big thanks because of this reason. I have a lot of times to spend to read my bible, and to get to know Him more!!!

So .. I hope you guys learn something from my article. Just remember, Satan can do anything to decrease our level .. he even can use simple and ordinary things to pursue his mission .. (well, yes .. Satan too has a mission and purpose in his life .. haha). So my last word is .. BEWARE!!

Stay blessed!