school time is never easy for me

Can you please just stop hurting me.

20 years of my life, and I cant even mention one tiny part of it where I can say I'm so grateful to have you in my life.

Am I being so ungrateful?

Come on, i tried like so many times to keep my faith.

I tried so many times to buy all your promises.

Yet you always successfully ruined and destroyed all of it.

You've stolen so many opportunities from me, for having such a wonderful life.

For being a normal guy, a manly one.

I sometimes regret the fact that i supported her when you proposed her.

But I dont want to hate you

Because I know, hating you doesnt make any difference in my life. Keeping all this pain is just making me want to hurt somebody else, making me bitter, and killing me inside.

And I will end up just like you are.

I want to be different, I dont want to walk the path where you are right now.

So here I am, for I dont know how many times, to say, the hard way, I forgive you.